Cat has promised to write at least 1 note a day..and she humbly do apologize for the 'no news' since 28 Dec 2009. Was a bit caught up with something personal and finishing work at the office.
The last 12 months has been a saga of block buster proportions on the news headlines in Malaysia: PM's Datuk Seri Najib's 1 Malaysia policy, the H1N1 virus, economic wake up calls, MCA's internal problem in the party, the budget announcement and the investigation surrounding the death of political secretary Teoh Beng Huat.
On personal level..cat would say that 2009 was better than 2008. This year also has it's ups and downs but at least it was less than last year. Either that... or cat must have been better at handling problems :). Less hope that it was a bit of both. Then, cat can look forward to a better year in 2010 and a much stronger cat.
The hardest times have been when it looks as though nothing is happening or worse..when something is definitely wrong in cat's life. Cat has experience the sadness in losing someone and losing hope. Despair had been added in also. The feeling of being invisible and unworthy came in mind.
Then came notes from friends near and far...from newly acquainted bloggers friends that came with messages of encouragement and much needed hugs. And from old friends that has enlightened cat on certain issues. Cat is unable to say anything other than..Thanks from cat's bottomless heart. :)
This is the year also which cat has found the 'Law of Attraction', the spirit of being positive and maintaining faith. Cat has also chose which path to take with eyes wide opened. Cat has loved and has known how it feels to be loved back. No regrets..ever. Cat has experience envy..and would never again let it into cat's heart again. Cat has known jealousy, oh..and it was not a nice feeling at all..this is one thing that cat has still need to put a lid on it (love and jealousy.. why must it always come together?).
Cat has to keep reminding herself that life is made of mixtures of bitterness and sweetness. Without that life would be boring and cat would not grow up and learn anything. And cat would have not written this blog. Need to remember what he has taught cat: that nothing cat is doing is wasted time. Cat may not understand or like what is happening..but cat can begin to accept that whatever happens is another marker on life's big chart.
Looking forward to year 2010. Cat would not make any resolutions. Just keep on learning and continue to improve herself. Walk the talk.
Hoping that there would be someone who care enough to knock some senses into this cat's head when cat forgets her lessons and sinks back into her black hole. :) Just don't knock too hard ,ok :)
Happy New Year 2010 and May God Bless Everyone.
Love and hugs
Cat
Cat was going through the newspapers and saw this an extract of the essay written by Robert N Test, titled : To Remember Me
Here is an extract of it:
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The day will come when my body will lie upon a white sheet neatly tucked under four corners of a mattress located in a hospital busily occupied with the living and the dying. At a certain moment, the doctor will determine that my brain has ceased to function, and that for all intense and purposes, my life has stopped.
When that happens, do not attempt to instill artificial life into my body by the use of a machine. And don't call this my deathbed. Let this be called the bed of life, and let my body be taken from it to help others lead a fuller life.
Give my sight to a man who has never seen a sunrise, a bay's face or the love in the eyes of a woman.
Give my heart to a person whose own heart has caused nothing but endless days of pain.
Give my blood to the teenager who was pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he could live to see his grandchildren play.
Give my kidneys to the one who depends on a machine to live from week to week.
Take my bones, every muscle, every fiber and nerve in my body and find a way to make a cripple child walk.
Explore every corner of my brain. Take my cells in necessary and let them grow so that, some day a speechless boy will shout at a crack of a bat and a deaf girl will hear the sound of rain against her window.
Burnt what is left of me and scatter the ashes to the winds to help the flowers grow. If you must bury something, let it be my faults, my weakness and all the prejudices against my fellow men. Give my sins to the devil. Give my soul to God.
If by chance, you wish to remember me, do it with a kind deed or word to someone who needs you.
If you do all that I have asked, I will live forever.
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Robert test died in 1994 at the age of 64 and under the term of his will, his body was donated to the University of Cincinnati College of Medicine. His essay played a part in awakening the world to the importance of organ donation. Test believe that organ donation means a new lease of life in others. 'It's a way to live forever in others. Your entire body can go to many people. You know, you could be walking around in 10 cities.' The hopes represented by organ donation is symbolized by a green ribbon.
Food for thoughts
Signing off,
Cat
If kisses were water,
I'll give you the sea
If hugs were leaves
I'll give you a whole tree
If you wish for a planet
I'll give you the whole galaxy
If love is life
I'll give you mine
That is how much you meant to me...
Raya Message from Boss : :p
Because it's the raya period, it doesn't mean that you all can eat whatever you want. Being in Sales, we need to maintain poise and be presentable. Look at all of you! Not one of you can be considered as 'fit'. Too many 'kuih', 'rendang' and 'ketupat'. That must be it.
What happened this year? J, you will lose the middle button soon. Pls take out 2 kg.
L, you are not even a muslim and you look so chubby now. No, don't answer.
S & A, both of you.. I won't say anything. Worst case ever.
Cat, you do dissapoint me. I thought you had more willpower than all of them. You have more curves everywhere now. Need to lose the extra 1 kg.
Look at G and me. We are the only ones that stay the same.
Magic word, u all : Eat To Live and not Live To Eat!!
or Must be that you all never invite both of us to any of your open houses..
All of us : Ooo.. So that is the real reason for this 'lesson'. Hehehe
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“The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment, when you are between asleep and awake, when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy, when for just that one moment you believe with your entire soul that the dream is reality, and it really happened.”
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Words can be pleasing or it can hurt more than if you are being cut by a knife..
Life must be having fun with the scripts and plots. Do movies copy from real life or is it life that is copying scenes from the movies? End of Act 1, Episode 23. The camera shuts down and all the cast and the Film Director goes away, back to their own separate lives.
In reality, life keeps on filming. The actors and cast stay there. The camera is rolling on 24/7. How do you erase words.. Which is true and which is not true? You can't change any of the scripts or the plot. Could what 'he' says is correct? Has it all been her mistakes? Will she survive? No one knows. Just have to wait for the next show. Would anyone care? It's just 1 story among millions and millions of stories being recorded everywhere. Many would just say: There are others with worst situations than yours. A story that is not unique at all. Just grit your teeth and bear it.
The Law of the seed? You can't change events and you can't change others. You can only change the way you look at things and your own attitude to what's happening in order to be happy..Was that the answer? The secret to happiness or is it a part of survival guide? Sometimes it's really a wonder how people can treat a woman, a child, a maid or an old parent worse than they would treat an animal...
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Build a wall as high and as strong as the Great Wall of China, friend, and hide your most inner thoughts and worries. It's not for the human ears. Stop reading novels and watching dramas. Don't watch the news. Mind your own business. You are not important, no one cares about small unhappy people. Be the perfect human: smile and laugh. Laugh when you are sad, laugh when you are angry, laugh every second, every minute. Worse come to worse, they will only send you to an asylum. And when you are dead, at least people will say: Here lies a wonderful and happy soul.
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**gloomy article for a sunny Sunday**
