Invictus

Out of the night that covers me

Black as a pit from pole to pole

I thank whatever God may be

For my unconquerable soul..

In the fell clutch of circumstances

I have not winced or cried aloud

Under the bludgeoning of chance

My head is bloody, but unbowed

Beyond this place of wrath and tears

Looms but the horror of the shade

And yet the menace of the years

Finds, and shall find me, unafraid

It matters not how straight the gate

How charged with punishment the scroll

I am master of my fate

I am the captain of my soul

-William Ernest Henley-

Something Cute

Cat was reading a book and in one of the pages, there is this 1 title which catches the eyes : 'Conditions In Order to Be Loved'. Feeling curious on what all this is about, Cat went scrolling further into the article ( since when does loving someone comes with a guide book?)

And curiosity kills a cat.

'Do you know which elements need to be there for people to feel that you are 'cute'?
The answer is : small, powerless, warm, soft, circular, have big eyes and.. a little bit of stupidity.'

Ouch! That goes deeply straight to the heart,

These have been scientifically proven when they test the theory on pets: dog, cat, baby bear, penguins...etc.etc.. People just want to hug them because they are 'cute'.

Pets? !! Hmm..but then, being cute only meant that you only trigger the protective instinct inside people. Would caring and being protected equals to love? Would that be one of the conditions?

Funny book.. Cat would rather not continue reading it. Words sometimes just mess up the mind.
Action does speak louder than words.

One Good Deed

He almost didn't see the old lady, stranded on the side of the road, but even in the dim light of day, he could see she needed help. So he pulled up in front of her Mercedes and got out. His Pontiac was still sputtering when he approached her. Even with the smile on his face, she was worried. No one had stopped to help for the last hour or so .. was he going to hurt her? He didn't look safe; he looked poor and hungry.

He could see that she was frightened, standing out there in the cold. He knew how she felt. It was that chill which only fear can put in you. He said, "I'm here to help you, ma'am. Why don't you wait in the car where it's warm? By the way, my name is Bryan Anderson."

Well, all she had was a flat tire, but for an old lady, that was bad enough. Bryan crawled under the car looking for a place to put the jack, skinning his knuckles a time or two. Soon he was able to change the tire.

But he had to get dirty and his hands hurt. As he was tightening up the lug nuts, she rolled down the window and began to talk to him. She told him that she was from St. Louis and was only just passing through. She couldn't thank him enough for coming to her aid. Bryan just smiled as he closed her trunk. The lady asked how much she owed him.

Any amount would have been all right with her. She already imagined all the awful things that could have happened had he not stopped. Bryan never thought twice about being paid. This was not a job to him. This was helping someone in need, and! God knows there were plenty who had given him a hand in the past. He had lived his whole life that way, and it never occurred to him to act any other way.

He told her that if she really wanted to pay him back, the next time she saw someone who needed help, she could give that person the assistance they needed, and Bryan added, "And think of me."

He waited until she started her car and drove off. It had been a cold and depressing day, but he felt good as he headed for home, disappearing into the twilight.

A few miles down the road the lady saw a small cafe. She went in to grab bite to eat, and take the chill off before she made the last leg of her trip home. It was a dingy looking restaurant. Outside were two old gas pumps. The whole scene was unfamiliar to her. The waitress came over and brought a clean towel to wipe her! wet hair. she had a sweet smile, one that even being on her feet for the whole day couldn't erase.

The lady noticed the waitress was nearly eight months pregnant, but she never let the strain and aches change her attitude. The old lady wondered how someone who had so little could be so giving to a stranger. Then she remembered Bryan.

After the lady finished her meal, she paid with a hundred dollar bill. The waitress quickly went to get change for her hundred dollar bill, but the old lady had slipped right out the door. She was gone by the time the waitress came back. The waitress wondered where the lady could be.

Then she noticed something written on the napkin. There were tears in her eyes when she read what the lady wrote: "You don't owe me anything. I have been there too.
Somebody once helped me out, the way I'm helping you. If you really want to pay me back, here is what you do: Do not let this chain of love end with you." Under the napkin were four more $100 bills.

Well, there were tables to clear, sugar bowls to fill, and people to serve, but the waitress made it through another day.

That night when she got home from work and climbed into bed, she was thinking about the money and what the lady had written. How could the lady have known how much she and her husband needed it? With the baby due next month, it was going to be hard..

She knew how worried her husband was, and as he lay sleeping next to her, she gave him a soft kiss and whispered soft and low, "Everything's gonna be all right. I love you, Bryan Anderson."

There is an old saying "What goes around comes around."

Knowing How To

Life lessons ..

Life is not about what you want in life..
But it's knowing how to reach your dreams..

Life is not about how high you want to rise..
But it's knowing you to take off in the first place..

Life is not about the goal you set..
But it's knowing what you would need to achieve it..

Life is not about where you want to go..
But it's knowing how to get to your destination..

Life is not about imagining what you want to do..
But it's having the knowledge on how to do it..

Life is not about who you want to be,,
But it's about how you become who you are..

Every Cloud has a Silver Lining

~ From the Poem, "Don't Quit,"
Author Unknown

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit-
Rest if you must, but do not quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-
It's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

P/S : Sometimes it's hard to change your mindset when you are used to someone or are used to doing something the same way most of your life.

You would certainly feel afraid to leave a routine for the unknown..
No one can guarantee you that everything will turn out ok whatever you decided. That is when faith plays a role.

" To let go is not to regret the past, but to let go is to look at the future and learn to live again"

Something to Someone 2

I have finally understood.
In the end, each person belongs to themselves.
And we are lucky that we can be close to someone..even though we cannot be one.
It's impossible to think that someone belongs to us..

Even though I am crying today and may well be crying tomorrow, I am sure that I am strong enough to be able to laugh again the day after.That is good enough. And that is how my life is.

No matter what happens, I will not give up hope. Tomorrow is another day..

Soulmates

Q : Your current relationship?

The word relationship is too vague to be explained. Maybe the below quote will it more just than all the words running around in my head:

Soul mates
It is loving someone because that is all youve ever known
To love him
And to have perfect understanding
and a need of each other that is unexplainable.
It's a connection, that is much as unlogical, as it is unfathomable
But causes not only a great joy, to be with each other, but also a great sorrow, to be apart..

Soul mates
It is to find calm, within a busy hectic lifestyle
to be able to think clearly for the first time in your life
to feel, as if you are making the right choice, with all certainty for once
to not be embarrased, or care when you are kissing him,
in front of a huge crowd, but to feel all that really matters to you
is if you are enough to make him happy,

Soul mates
It is to be the one he adores
from the first time we met,
a connection that was more real then anything we had ever felt,
As if we were designed specifically for each other..

:)

A Wowan's Forte

Quote of the Day :

Whatever you give a woman, she will always come up with one step better
If you give her sperm, she will give you a baby
If you give her a house, she will make it a home
If you give her groceries, she will make you a meal
If you give her a reason to smile, she will give you her heart
She will multiply and enlarges whatever is given to her..

So, beware!
If you give crap, be ready to receive tons of shit!

Alone By Herself

Dear Memoir,

Hoc die magnus mortuus est amor

I wait all these years to find someone who understands me..
I thought, someone who accepts me as I am..
Someone with a wizard's power to melt stone to sunlight..
Someone who can bring me happiness in spite of trials..
Someone who can face my dragons in the night..
Someone who can transform me into the soul I choose to be...
Just yesterday,
I found that 'Someone' is the face I see in the mirror: It's me and my homemade mask.
-Ricard David Bach-
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Up On The Roof

When this old world starts a getting me down
And people are just too much for me to face
I’ll climb way up to the top of the stairs
And all my cares just drift right into space
On the roof, it’s peaceful as can be
And there the world below don’t bother me

So when I come home feeling tired and beat
I’ll go up where the air is fresh and sweet
I’ll get far away from the hustling crowd
And all the rat-race noise down in the street
On the roof, that’s the only place I know

And at night the stars they put on a show for free
And, darling, you can share it all with me
That’s what I said
Keep on telling you
That right smack dab in the middle of town
I found a paradise that’s troubleproof
And if this old world starts a getting you down
There’s room enough for two
Up on the roof...

* To be as near to the sky..

Come To Live

There's a river flowing through me...
it knows me
It's currents they, control my emotions
But there's just one stream that evades me, escapes me
It overflows when my heart's left open

Your feelings, are the one thing
Out of my control, it's not in my hands
Not knowing... is killing me
Where's the way inside your soul?
We gotta get it grow

Like a flower under rain
Like a child's first day
Like a story's first page
Watch our love come to life
Love is not a thing to rush
It's a feeling you should trust
It'll be that way with us
Watch our love come to life

There's no point in making predictions
Or wishing... the paths we're on are somehow connected
and you can't see around the corner
You wanna... cause you're so afraid life'll leave you rejected
When you least expect it

Your feelings... are the one thing
Out of my control... it's not in my hands
Not knowing, is killing me
Where's the way inside your soul
we gotta let it grow

Like a flower under rain
Like a child's first day
Like a story's first page
Watch our love come to life
Love is not a thing to rush
It's a feeling you should trust
It'll be that way with us
Watch our love come to life
Come to life come to life

hands touching
 eyes sweeping electricity
no words... hearts speak what is happening
you wanted so bad to fall
you wanted to risk it all
but right now its not your call

like a flower under rain
like a child's first day
like a story's first page
watch our love come to life

Love is not a thing to rush
It's a feeling you should trust
It'll be that way with us
watch our love come to life
come to life come to life
watch our love come to life

Friends For ALways

People are always saying to their friends that they'll be "Friends Forever".
In reality, how often does the friendship last?

You might be the best of friends one year after you left school.
Slowly, with college and university, the letters come in once a month but you are still pretty good friends who talks on the phone once a while.
Then, you started your first job and do not talk often anymore.
The year after that, you were so busy with your new life tat you don't have the time to talk to them anymore.

So, once in a while, take the time to say thank you to them : Even if you never talk to them again in your life, tell them that they are special to you and they have made a difference in your life.
Tell them also that you look up to them, respected them, and truly cherish them.

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell your new friends that you never will.
Everyone needs a friend. Someday you might feel like you have no friends at all.
Just remember this and take comfort in knowing that somebody out there cares about you and always will.

Individual

Every individual in an organization is motivated by something different.
Hmm.. what are you motivated by? :)

Let It Be

A friend was complaining that the thought of the upcoming Valentine's Day is making her upset. You can almost see the fumes coming out from her ears. While others are planning or expecting to get flowers or love letters, she's just hoping that Valentine's Day would come and go as quickly as possible.

She's just tired of people asking her 'Why are you still single? You will feel lonely when you are old and no kids of your own to look after you.' she said while making a moue. 'What is so great about being married?' she asked.

How to answer her? Well, it's just the public perception. They see a married woman as having achieved all of a girl's dream: having a partner for life. Never mind that some of them are cheating on each other and keep on fighting for every small thing. All that matters is that they tie the knot.

But in reality, it all depends on luck. Happily married friends will keep on trying to match you up and saying things like 'hope that you will find the love of your life soon.' Those unhappily married will otherwise envy you for staying single and having the freedom minus the heartache.

Why does some women ends up being single? By choice or by having no choice. And again, of course fate has something to do with it. As usual.

Alas, it's not easy being married. It would mean spending your life with someone who is less than what you imagined he is. To give in to your fear of being alone should not be a reason to accept a proposal. There will be consequences and a price to pay at the end.

Being single also is not easy. But not every single woman is sad, lonely and desperate, isn't it? In fact, she could be happier than her married friend who is saddled with children, in-laws, third parties or an abusing spouse.

Just let it be, dear friend. Maybe it's just not your time yet. Enjoy your single status for the time being!

Mirror, Mirror..

Olivia Wilde as the Evil Queen and Alec Baldwin as the magic mirror from Snow White,


“I don't know if I can continue, even today, to always like myself.
But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself.
It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes- it is inevitable.

But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, 'well, if I'd known better I'd have done better,' that's all.
So you say to people who you think you may have injured, 'I'm sorry,' and then you say to yourself, 'I'm sorry.'

If we all hold on to the mistake, we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror;
we can't see what we're capable of being.
You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that's rough.

But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach.”

-Maya Angelou quotes (American Poet, b.1928)-

Captain of My Soul

Once, I was ignorant of poems and poetry.
For me, all those sing song rhymes belongs to the world of primary school. :p
However, 2 years back, my eyes were finally opened to the beauty of poetry. Every poem tells you of a story: happiness, joy, love, sadness , sufferings, madness and even death.

Words that traversed the world and touched the hearts of so many people. One of the poets that I always like to read is William Ernest Henley.

William Ernest Henley (1849-1907) was a British poet and critic who suffered from Tuberculosis of the bone and had a below knee amputation. He wrote this poem in reaction to his fate and in defiance to his suffering.

Out of the night that covers me
Black as a pit from pole to pole
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find, me unafraid

It matters not how straight the gates
How charged with punishments the scroll
I am the master of my fate
I am the captain of my soul!
*****

Wonder how it feels to be really the captain of your own soul...

In Between Days

To lose someone is hard for the soul.. but to love someone with all your heart and not able to see each other is a torment too.

yesterday i got so old
i felt like i could die
it made me want to cry
go on, go on
just walk away
go on, go on
your choice is made

go on, go on
and disappear
go on, go on
away from here
away from me

i know i was wrong
when i said it was true
that it couldn't be me
and it must be her
in between
the days without you
without you..

yesterday
i got so scared
i shivered like a child
yesterday
away from you
it froze me deep inside

come back, come back
don't walk away
come back, come back
come back today
come back, come back
come back to me...

How it hurts when you do not know whether you want him to stay or to go away..

The Hardest Thing

We both know that I shouldn't be here
This is wrong
And baby it's killing me,
It's killing you
Both of us trying to be strong

I've got somewhere else to be
Promises to keep
So, I've made up my mind
There is no turning back

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion as I say goodbye..
There's always another time to cry

I can't let you see what you mean to me
When my hands are tied and my heart's not free
We're not meant to be

It's the hardest thing I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
Pretending I don't love you..

I know that we'll meet again
Fate has a place and time
I've got to be cruel in order to be kind
So you can get on back with your life

Like Dr. Zhivago
All my love I'll be sending to you
Even though you will never know
There can be no happy ending

It's the hardest thing
I'll ever had to do
To turn around and walk away
Pretending I don't love you
Pretending I don't love you..

Maybe another time, another day
No, There would never be that day..
As much as I want to, I can't stay

I've made up my mind
There is no turning back
She's been good to you
And she deserves better than that

It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to do
To look you in the eye
And tell you I don't love you
It's the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie
To show no emotion as I say goodbye..
There's always another time to cry..

I don't want to live a lie
What can I do
Except do the hardest thing I'll ever have to do..

(98 degrees)

A song to finish off the day..

Life Lesson

Most people do not know what they want
But they are pretty sure that they have not got it.

Some know what they want
But they do not want to try and get it

Others know what they want and have got it
But they do not know how to appreciate it

A few knows what they want
But they can never have it no matter what they try..

Slow & Steady

It does not matter how slowly you go..
As long as you do give up and stop.