Memento

I have to believe in a world outside my own mind. I have to believe that my actions still have meaning, even if I can't remember them. I have to believe that when my eyes are closed, the world's still there. Do I believe the world's still there? Is it still out there?... 


Dementia.. is described as a group of symptoms caused by disorders that affect the brain. Among all the disorders, the most frequently heard of is the Alzheimer's disease, involving the progressive lost of brain cells.

Would losing your memory be one of the worst experience anyone could ever suffer from? Only God knows.. as those at that stage would not be telling any stories.. Losing half of your memory is already frightening.. trying to remember recent events (whether it did happen or not), being confused and trying to be certain whether what people are telling you is true or not.

They say that Alzheimer's disease often struck those that are at the age of 60 and above. Yet, it is not uncommon that 5% of those in the early age of 40s and 50s can also be affected by it.

Facts remained that in the early stage the most noticeable deficit is memory loss, which shows up as difficulty in remembering recently learned facts and inability to acquire new information. On the contrary, older memories  the memory of the body on how to do things, such as using a fork to eat are affected on a lesser degree. 

Along the years, more deterioration appears, with the person being unable to perform most common activities of daily living.They started to have more difficulties in trying to recall vocabulary which leads to frequent incorrect word substitutions Reading and writing slowly becomes impossible. During this phase, memory problems worsen, and the person may fail to recognize even those who are close to them.
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Wonder which is the worse scenario: would it be losing one of the limbs ..or losing the faculty to remember, to think and to act. In one part, you might not care less. But on the other hand, it will be hard to visualize yourself as a burden to the others: giving the role caregiver to the ones that you loved and having them sadden by your condition. Sickness is as hard on others as on your own self, isn't it?

Wonder what would be best in this situation: to be alone by yourself and not to burden others..? Or would it be better to spend and enjoy whatever time left with those that you care regardless what will happen at the end?

Life is full of challenges and trial.. Sometimes, we put things aside to think of it on another day. Sometimes, we hide the facts.. and pretend that things are fine. There are also times, when we just face up to reality and fight things till the end. Or maybe we just run away and hope that problems will settle by themselves.

Whatever, it is , it's a question of choices. To be alone or to share things whether it is good or bad. Don't be sad, don't be mad.. sometimes things do happen for a reason that we do not understand. Just be strong and pray for the best..

Memory can change the shape of a room; it can change the color of a car. And memories can be distorted. They're just an interpretation, they're not a record, and they're irrelevant if you have the facts.