Remembering Cat

Do knight in shining armor really exist? Or are they a fragment of someone's creative imagination that were passed on to others?

Same goes with the fact that there are no dragons, no witches, no fairy godmother.

Life is so much different than Disney's stories. Life, actually, is more like the original works of Hans Christian Anderson: The little mermaid didn't get the prince. Even when in the end, the mermaid decided not to kill the prince, she was turned into sea foam. The prince were happily married to the princess and did not even remember the mermaid. Sad but reality bites.

Could this Cat do that? Sacrificing her life for the happiness of another? To stand still and watch everyone continue with their daily lives as they normally did? 

The answer is yes. If the world is as hard as Hans in his story telling tales told us, Cat would probably do what the mermaid did. She would put this heart of hers into a box. Lock it and keep it in a safe place where it won't fall to pieces every time the silence became heavier than any burden. Tears has never been known to solve anything. Just like throwing ashes into the wind. 

If Chrissy can stick to her rigorous plan in changing her life, cat believes that cat also can stick to this plan of changing cat's emotional mindset.

Cat wants to be strong so that no one can hurt her or make her miserable ever again.

Let's make a pact, Chrissy. As long as you will not throw down the towel, cat will not give up also. Cat will try to start all over again but with a brand new diary.

This would be cat's own fight in keeping the spirit high and not letting anyone put cat's self esteem down that bottomless well again. Thank you Chrissy, for opening cat's eyes. Hugs and salute to you.

P/S: This does not mean that Cat do not need anyone. Of course, Cat will always need someone to standby her. A someone who would be proud of Cat each time Cat did something good or correct. Cat also need someone to help Cat gets up again each time she falls down. She knows that even the strongest person would breakdown and cry..sometimes.

Cat wants with all her heart to laugh out loud and be the reason that brings a smile to those close to her.  Cat would want to hear someone's news and be there in case someone needs Cat. There won't be any pity, sorry or empty promises between us. Cat would only be glad to know that someone cares. The bruises and cuts are to be expected when riding a bike.

Cat used to say,  'If you will take care of me, I will take care of you too.'
But now, instead of that, Cat is saying 'I will take care of me for you, if you will take care of you for me.'