Empty Spaces

The head is throbbing, temperature rising and the eyes are strained.
This would be the 3rd day. Food looks bland and one bite, just one,  would make the stomach wants to throw everything out again.

It has taken Cat half of her energy and strength to be silent and keep on walking. Not turning around to see if someone is still standing there, watching Cat leave. Juggling between doing the right thing or letting things be as it is. The memories of all things said and done..that would be the only thing left. Without that, there is only empty spaces.

Tried to write..but it's all coming out as random, inconsistent thoughts. Mind keep running back to those hopes and plans that has never been fulfilled and those happy times that were from the past  It takes all the effort to finish a post..and the result seems out of context and bland.
Maybe it would be better for Cat to start writing a textbook... bland and boring, kan. Cat must still be ok if she can still make silly statements as above.

Who else can Cat talk to about just anything. Whose opinion can Cat ask and who can Cat share Cat's silly ideas? Who can make Cat smile when Cat is sad?

People say that fasting would make one stronger and nearer to God. Cleanses the system and the mind.. Just as well..since cat is not eating, let cat just try fasting.

"When a problem hits you, open your heart to God and say "Inna lillahi wainna illaihi rajiuun."
"God,Ya Rabbi, I accept this trial with open heart, as what has been due to me".

Signing off,
Tired Cat