Waste Not, Want Not

Have been working hard today. Much much harder than at the office. Hopefully tonight I will just snooze off automatically as I put my head on the pillow. Sleep sweet sleep.

Before that, talking about sleep brings us to another favorite issue: Eating. You can never walk in the streets here without the talk automatically turning to 'food'. It's as natural as saying 'Hi'. It's always : 'How are you? Come, let's go to the Coffee shop for a drink'. For most people, the work routine is like: breakfast, coffee break, lunch, coffee break, teatime, pre-dinner drink, dinner and supper.

Finding a place to eat is also as easy as ABC. Just say what your heart desires: Korean, Vietnamese, Indonesian, Chinese, French, Italian.. It's all there. Just prepare the money. Other than you just have to plan on what, when and where to eat.

Alas, in all the facility of getting food, we sometimes have the tendency to waste food. Even me, I cannot avoid it. With competition getting stronger, the portion in each plate also becomes larger. And people like me just cannot finish off my plate. (Hope that mum is not reading this or else I will surely get a lecture on wasting good food).

But really..the only complaint that Malaysians have nowadays are having the stomach 'too full'. The best way is to cook your own food, knowing the amount that you can eat. But that is not always possible as most of the time we are working and being a part of the sales team, eating and communicating plays a big role. To eat or not to eat..that is the question. :) And when you eat: To waste or not to waste?

The packaging for most food also is tailor made for families.. A loaf of Gardenia bread is a week supply for me..and even that sometimes has balance that had to be thrown away because of the expiry date. Whereas the newspaper was stating that everyday an average of 14,400 children of hunger and in a year the total is a devastating 5.256 millions of children in Malaysia. That is not counting the whole world.

As a friend was saying: There's nothing wrong with eating well or eating richly. But there's certainly a difference between eating a lot of food and throwing away a lot of food. And all that thrown away food is not leftovers or scraps.

The food that I am talking about are those that were bought during a shopping spree but never consumed till it has to be thrown away because it can no longer be eaten. Let us just try to do our part. Don't laugh at me just because I ordered half a plate of mee goreng.

Let's start by using the part of the money saved from not buying too much food to donate to those in need. If a little bit can help one child, it would be sufficient. Everything starts with a small step. Waste not, Want Not...

Do you turn from your work with a smile?
Do you feel that it's all worth the while?
As you dream the twilight hours away,
When you come to the end of the day!

Procrastination

What is 'procrastination'? No, it's not a bad word (grin) ..only a long one to write and a mouthful to say it out loud. To 'procrastinate' means to delay doing something. Procrastinators have a problem in having things done on time. Cat just knew the word today and the best way to remember something like that word is to use it the first chance you get. Voila :p

The problem isn't so bad when it's your own time that you are delaying. It becomes irritating when it's someone else's time that you are wasting. Have you thought about it? If you like doing that, the person that you are going to hurt the most will be yourself. The more you let that pile of file stacked on your desk.. the harder it will be to clear all those stuffs. It just hurts cat eyes to see the files not even been read yet and it hurts cat's ears to hear you requesting to 'just have one more day to get it done'. How can you work when your fingers are stuck at that handphone of yours, girl?

Time is a very important thing, as you cannot get back the time that you have lost. Alas, most of us prefer to play with it, waste it and kill it.

The key is not to prioritize what's on your schedule BUT to schedule yourself according to your priorities. Well, you should know what is important and you should be making time to deal with it. You need to put meaning in what you do everyday so that you will be motivated to put your best effort in it.

If what you are doing doesn't have any meaning to you, then why do it at all?

Okay.. now that we have concluded on this, can Cat have that file on her desk at exactly 3.00pm today? If all those sms have more meaning than the pending work, then by all means, collect your last salary and use the  the day after tomorrow, and after tomorrow, after tomorrow on sms-ing .

Hmm..6 out of the 9 working hours spent on 'sms'? Can I work for you instead? :)

No, Cat is not angry..:) just explaining the meaning of 'procrastination' for you. And another good word that you need to learn after this would be 'resignation' perhaps?

Signing off ,
Cat..counting 1, 2, 3 till 100...
Patience: It's the art of waiting for the right moment (and until patience runs out) before delivering the final bomb...

A Man's World

This is a man's world, this is a man's world
You see, man made the cars to take us over the road
Man made the trains to carry heavy loads
Man made electric light to take us out of the dark
Man made the boat for the water, like Noah made the ark

-James Brown-

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 Cat was having a problem with her car..again. Hmm, ever since the accident a few months ago, Cat's Viva has not been the same anymore. It;s still the same shiny silver coloured car..but there's a strange feel to it. There's also a slight off tune feeling when Cat turns sharply at the corner.

That's the biggest challenge for Cat: having a gut feeling that something is not right...but unable to express clearly what's wrong with it. And this being a man's world, you need to have the technical ability words in order not to be looked down (and not to be charged a bomb just because you do not speak the 'jargon').

As Cat parked her car at the tyre shop and step her foot in there, it feels like being out of this world , in a strange planet. There was the usual drilling and banging sounds that you would expect in a workshop. The difference is that everyone there acts as if you do not exist and just continue doing whatever they were doing. Trying to muster up her courage, Cat took a deep breath and with a so called air of confidence, went to the nearest guy, ' Excuse me..I do have this problem with my car...'

Not yet finished her sentences, the long haired guy pointed to another guy who was sweeping the floor. 'Ask him.' Cat was astonished..why does she need to refer to the cleaner..? Hmm.. well, here goes. Cat started again her explaination, 'Excuse me, ....'. He spoke with a loud voice. 'Seng, go and look at this lady's car. It need's aligment.'

Another guy came and asks for the car keys, started it and just went off with it! Gone all act of being the world wise Cat.. Eyes big as saucers, Cat looked up at the cleaner, but he just acted as if nothing is wrong and goes off whistling a happy tune. Okayyy.. Cat regains her composure ..and her car came back into view not so shortly. So, it was a test run to see what;s the problem.Can't they just say something in the first place..and avoid giving cat a heart attack..?

The next question was..where do you sit or stand while waiting for your car? And what do you do while waiting? There wasn't a chair in view..and the place is full of wires and tools. Act like a guy and talk about engines and cars? Hmm..Cat just wants them to repair the problem and makes an exit as fast as she can. Talking is  a problem when there's no one sociable around. Just guys whispering and seemingly laughing at this out of place person. But, Cat would do anything for her car.

Cat guesses that Cat is not the only woman who goes to a tyre shop on her own. However, it's really a man's place to be here or for those women that know and love all these men's toys and know the language. Not a place certainly for a soft spoken and unsure person. Maybe this is what a guy feels when they have to be alone at a lingerie shop buying something for their love ones. Out of place.

Lesson for today : Either you just act tough and bear all the embarassing comments or.. bring a guy with you when you go to a tyre shop. This is a man's world..

Dont Ever Give Up On Me

I know I break your heart

With everything I'm not

Don't ever give up on me

Remember that we're strong

And even as we fall

Don't ever give up on me

These tears I'm holding back

Could turn my whole face black

And I don't know if you'd love me

If you saw me like that

Would you?

Would you follow if I turned my back

Could you love me through this broken glass

I know I'm not who I was or where I need to be

But don't ever give up on me

Don't ever give up on me

My heart would turn to run

But even when I'm gone

Don't ever give up on me

I'm trying deep within

If you could hold my hand

Don't ever give up on me

This war I'm fighting havoc

It turns me inside out and

I don't know if you'd love me

If you saw me right now

Would you?

Would you follow if I turned my back

Could you love me through this broken glass

I know I'm not who I was or where I need to be

But don't ever give up on me

Don't ever give up on me

Holdin out

Holdin out

Will you love the rest of me

Would you follow if I turned my back

Could you love me through this broken glass

I know I'm not who I was or where I need to be

But don't ever give up on me

Don't ever give up on me..

Trying to Live

Lately, cat is seized by a sort of undefined sadness.
Guess it is coming to this. Some of the most important truths are right in front of cat..but like all personal things, cat is trying not to see it, trying not to face it.

Sometimes, someone might be everything, the most important thing to you. But you are not his everything. You might always be at the 2nd place to him. Being put aside. From time to time, it's still ok, but when it happens almost always..unreachable.. drowning in sadness.

This fact does not come from that someone by direct telling. It was more of reading between the lines, half stories and silences. This is what making cat sit far away. Stay away , moving away..whatever that suits the situation. There is no more glue to make the pieces stick together. It's easier to live without such feelings than having all the feelings that does not have a place for it.

Went for a run this afternoon, directly after work. 1 km, 2km.. must be 4km altogether. At last, cat stopped. Sprawled on the green grass. Suddenly it came to mind: When all the muscles feel as if they are going to explode and you think you'll die a slow painful death, it is now time to take a break. The same goes with the mind. When you feel drained, sad and the throbbing going non-stop, it's really time to take a break. Cat got to find her peace of mind..

Would you understand...it's not about hate at all. It's not about you. It's about living..trying to live..

Signing off,
Cat

Talking Codes

It has been some time that cat has not written anything here.
Has been doing some thinking, some reading, some learning, some talking, some walking and lots of sums. :p Learning more about the internet, programming and blogging.

Conclusion? It's not that easy. It's much more faster to write an article than trying to know the programming for color codes, making a photo larger or smaller, and doing the roller post. What is cat talking about? It's the back engine thing..widgets, design.. and codes.

Some would ask cat: why waste time trying to learn all that? As long as cat can write and put pictures on her posting, it would be enough. It's the nature of cats. Curious animals. When cat is unable to sleep (yes...the insomniac thing has return), cat loves to go blog walking and google anything that comes to mind. And during the finger tapping activities, cat couldn't help seeing interesting widgets at friend's blog. And cat being cat, she just ask questions straight on. And afterwards, when her student... :p and friend is online, she will ask Student how to do it.

Cat believes that there's no harm done in knowing new things. Who knows..if one day (God forbid it!) cat is out of her current job, at least she can survive in this technology savvy world. But..to tell you the truth, all these code things just drives cat over the wall. :( It's not easy especially when you do not have any IT background).

Mostly, what cat managed to learn is due to a friend, who has the patience of a saint, to teach cat slowly step by step till cat can do it on her own. There is one or two widget programs that cat has abandoned due to her small head almost exploded with overloading of codes. And Friend was kind enough to send cat the whole written program for cat to try on her own.

Cat just do not know how he can absorb all those numbers and stuffs. :) Cat guess that God must have created friend with a bit more codes and widgets than any of us. In return, Cat is teaching friend to be less serious.. and to appreciate the simple things in life other than numbers.. :p

Lastly, just an exercise to refresh the mind.. :p

01010100 01110001, 01100110 01100110 01110010 01100101 01110110 01100101 01110010 01111001 01110100 01101000 01101000 01101110 01100111... :)

Signing off,
01000011 01100001 01110100 :p (laughing)
\:)

Something to Someone

They say that when you have known someone for such a long time, things are bound to go stale or bumpy as you make your journey throughout the years. Cat used to laugh at this phrase. Cat thought that everything depends on you and your attitude : Whether you think you can or you think you cannot..you are right.

If you put all your strength and mind into your relationship, surely things will not change for the worse. Cat believed that her sheer will power would be enough.

Every night, for 12 years, before going to bed, Cat promises to herself that she would do her very best to ensure that he would not get bored with Cat. It's not a question of responsibility at all. It's about love, care and trust. When you are with someone, you try to give everything into that relationship : everything you do would come from the heart. Happiness is to see that person happy and to know that you are part of what makes him happy.

It has been quite sometime that Cat has not written. Words has left Cat, just empty decorations in a mind full of worries. Alas, tonight, the heart just feels like it's breaking into pieces. Tears just rolled off automatically and endlessly.

          Without trust, there's no way that things and thoughts can be shared.
          Hurt kept piling inside and the division grew larger.

          The harder you try, the more it hurts.

That is why it's better to take a stand and move away when you have exhausted all your resources. Giving up is not to blame anyone.. giving up is more about ..trying to break away from all the pain..trying to lick the wounds.. trying to live..



Cat is sorry that everything should end up this way..